So why am I bringing up the Funk? New Years, the reflection and goals that go along with it. Yuck. The week after Christmas I was all good, happy thoughts and positivity. Then New Years Eve happened. Oh good grief, now I have to think about how I didn't meet my goals, didn't accomplish 2% of what I wanted to, overall failure. Is this the truth? Not really. I made a ton of stuff last year, I raised my two children, I kept up a house. But why the feeling of failure. I hate it, I don't want to feel that way, but I just can't help it. Then my husband asked my what my goals or dreams were for the New Year. Stressful that question is. Do I really want to set myself up for failure again? I started listing all the things I wanted to accomplish this year, and the list was INSANE. Like 10 years worth of projects and goals. Why do I do this to myself. I'm not Super Woman and I don't want to be.
Here is an example. Last year at this time, I blogged about my goals for the year, the long list of works in progress and how this was going to be the year of getting them all done. You can see the mosaic below. 15 quilts. 15 quilts in one year, most of them just blocks, by that math I would have to finish a quilt every 24 days. That is IMPOSSIBLE for me. Why did I set that goal? Optimism is one thing, but this is something else.
Just for today: I will live through this day only. I will not brood about yesterday or obsess about tomorrow. I will not set far-reaching goals or try to overcome all of my problems at once. I know that I can do something for 24 hours that would overwhelm me if I had to keep it up for a lifetime.
Just for today: I will be happy. I will not dwell on thoughts that depress me. If my mind fills with clouds, I will chase them away and fill it with sunshine.
Just for today: I will accept what is. I will face reality. i will correct those things that I can correct and accept those I cannot.
Just for today: I will gather the courage to do what is right and take the responsibility for my own actions.
It was just what I needed today, a little message from God (and Dear Abby) to set me right on my path again. Does this mean that I won't set any goals this year? No, just realistic ones. I hope you join me on my journey and for those of you who don't have a perfect list of finished projects and accomplishments, I hope this helps you to realize that it doesn't have to be perfect, life is messy and you only have to live one day at a time.
Happy New Year!